February 2012
I feel like I haven’t really written anything of substance on here lately and each time I’ve started to, I haven’t been able to find the words. I guess I haven’t been writing much because in the midst of the overwhelming amount of emotions I have been experiencing, it has been hard to feel grounded and actually reflect on everything. Even now, in struggling to find the...
Anonymous asked: do you want any more kids in the future?
Anonymous asked: what color our kai eyes? and what parts do you think look like you and what parts look like tyler
Today I made an appointment at Ella Bache for tomorrow afternoon to use my gift voucher. It is at 3.30pm and goes for two hours. It is to get a massage (because breastfeeding and pregnancy has killed my back) and a manicure. I am so scared to leave Kai but I am aiming to feed him before I leave and then hopefully have him sleep while I’m gone. I have plenty of boob juice pumped so if he does...
Where can I buy nice (relatively cheap) button up dresses in a shop and not online? K GO
Kai seems really sad or sick or in pain. I don’t know how to help him. He’s had about three hours of broken sleep since 9am this morning. He keeps trying to sleep but waking up crying and seeming like he is in pain. His temperature is okay and I don’t know what to do. I wish he could tell me what was wrong. It’s heartbreaking.
Anonymous asked: You are stunning. You are one of the most beautiful girls I have seen. You have amazing bone structure. You don't look pregnant. You already look amazing, and as time goes on your body will just get nicer and nicer.. Don't take what that anon said to heart. Some people say mean things when they are jealous. And what isn't there to be jealous of?
Kai is being a big fat butt head today.
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igrewamonkey replied to your post: Can you get a tattoo whilst breastfeeding? ALSO…
Yep!!! And also go to Sydney. And then come visit us. Or I might bring Elye down.
OH MY GOD THAT IS A REALLY GOOD IDEA WE COULD STOP IN ON THE WAY THERE OR BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can you get a tattoo whilst breastfeeding?
ALSO Tyler is going back to Sydney next Friday. Would I be really DUMB to drive back with him and stay in Sydney for a week or so? Kai would be six weeks old. Hmm…
Being terrified of making phone calls blows.
I have wanted to call the midwife I had in Sydney that would sit with me for two hours one on one every Monday and talk to me about whatever it was I wanted to know or learn about. We were meant to have two more classes before I moved but I had an assignment due I hadn’t finished one week and then I ended up moving earlier than I expected. I...
Good brands of nappies that you can buy in Australia? Huggies are so expensive and I really like the Dri Bots (target brand) nappies but are there any others?
All I want to do is EAT. I want to go back to that first week when I had zero appetite.
Also, I have an appointment at Centrelink on Wednesday and considering you always have to wait one zillion hours, I’m so scared Kai will need a feed while I’m out. I am not confident enough with breastfeeding to pull my boob out in Centrelink. Oh god.
OH MY GOD IF I COULD HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO LIVE COMFORTABLY AND NEVER DEAL WITH CENTRELINK EVER AGAIN MY LIFE WOULD BE FANFUCKINGTASTIC
Anonymous asked: You and your mom are both so beautiful x
Okay, I am going to buy another packet of bleach for just the ends. Wish me lucky guys. Hopefully my hair doesn’t fall out/my head doesn’t explode.
I have a whole (open) box of newborn Huggies nappies that Kai doesn’t fit into. Damn. What do I do with them? I don’t want to waste them but I don’t have money to post them to anyone. Can I donate them somewhere?
Anonymous asked: How many people tell you not to bleach your hair yourself because you will ruin it yet you've gone and done it. Idiot.
My kid must be the loudest sleeper in the world. He just slept seven hours and in that time, I slept about three. Kid is loud. Also, I woke up to an EXPLODING boob because he doesn’t ever go that long between feeds.
Ya can’t win.
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I had an amazing night with you. I love so much that I can speak to you about anything and everything. Finding out what I have found out tonight, has really made me respect you one thousand times more than I did before, and believe me, I had more respect for you than anyone could imagine. You have never had an easy life, you have never had anything handed to you, you have never had someone who...
Realisations are possibly the worst things in the... →
Realisations are possibly the worst things in the whole entire world. I hate realising something over a year after it’s happened. I was in Cremorne tonight, somewhere I thought I’d never been, until everything looked so familiar and I remembered I stayed with Shannon there when I came to Sydney to see Spenser. When it hit me bigger than anything else, right in the face. I don’t know why it took...
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My friend, Erin just said that she missed school for the following reasons and then continued with a list of names of people we went to school with. What she said made me sad but it also made me happy and it made me realise it’s completely true. I miss school for a few different reasons but when I think about it- it all comes down to the people I spent 5 out of 7 days a week with. I spent the...
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If I didn’t have Tyler I think I would have blown my head off by now.
Nearly two years ago and this is just as true as it was then.
mymalakaixo:
I lost my mind the day you left. I think I’m still trying to find it.